just another day

Went to see another physio this morning. I like him, and I think I shall stick with this one. He specialises in post op rehab...which will come in handy very soon. I want to do what I can to strengthen my VMO before I have the surgery next month...less than 6 weeks to go now.
I have an new exercise to do 3 times a day and I must tape my knees for 8 hours every day. I got taught a new way of taping, and it actually feels like a better taping method. For a start I'm using less tape and I have more movement, whilst it's still giving me that support.
Scott (physio) also massaged the outer knee to try and release some tension, it's been feeling awfully tight lately and been causing me a bit of pain.
Pain scale today was a bit high. I was kind of expecting it though, however I thought it would have occured a few days ago, directly after doing 3 days straight of work. I know I'm not doing that again though for a long time, so I'm not really stressing about that.
I do have work tomorrow, but it should be alright. It's an afternoon shift and there'll be more people working with me so it should be better.

I caught up with Chris for lunch after the physio appointment and then came home and did some housework. I fell asleep afterwards, which didn't surprise me...last nights sleep sucked so bad. I just could not get comfortable at all.
Now, I'm just settling in for the night, and I think it'll be a semi early one too. Might pop on some tv or something. Oh and straighten my hair, forgot to do that last night.

Bye for now
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Tuesday 17th May, 2011

Today, I'm just gonna go on about my day because this is a journal right? And trying to catch up on everything else that's already happened seems pointless at this stage.
I revisit things in the past, get all tied up emotionally, then go off track completely. People probably don't even know what the hell I'm talking about half the time anyway. No point.

Today, I worked pretty hard. Started early in the morning and finished by mid afternoon. I was soooo wrecked this morning, it took 2 damn coffees to wake me up! Work was ok though, not much stress on my plate. There was only 2 of us working, which meant I worked a little harder than normal, thus my knees are killing me tonight. I am seriously considering seeing a physio tomorrow and I WILL be buying new supports as well. I've put off getting new ones for too long now and I've taken a huge risk by doing that. Now, I just have to. Money isn't really an excuse. I'm working just so I can afford things exactly like that.
I'm annoyed though cos I can't really save any money right now. And I keep having to dip into it, like I just had to before to cover my bills. Grr.

After I came home from work, I dropped in to see Chris before he went out for the night. He was cleaning his car making it all pretty. Had a good chat with him, then came home for dinner. :)
Now I'm tired again, shower soon then tv/bed I think.

xx

NZ, and post NZ

May 3rd, 2011. From bottom left: Sicha, Nikie, Eden, Milton, Kate, Dad, Leia, Me and Aunty Helen...then in the centre Grandma. 

New Zealand!
Yes, I haven't updated in forever and I did get back from NZ almost 2 weeks ago. But here's a picture I shall treasure forever. Love the fact we could all be in it, using the awesome timer on my camera...which I actually didn't know how to use until that day. We balanced the camera on a tissue, sitting on Grandmas walker...genius!
This was my last full day in NZ and not too long before we were on the road back to Christchurch.
I was only in NZ for 5 days, but in a way with all the travelling I did, it felt like a long 5 days. But still, it wasn't nearly enough time, as I knew it wouldn't be anyway. And it was hard to say bye so soon after saying hey. Regardless, I was sooo happy to actually have the opportunity to go across and see everybody again.
I am already making plans to travel back there late 2011. :)
To sum up the 5 days, about 80-90% was travelling. And the flight over there was my first experience travelling across the sea solo. I wasn't too nervous about it actually, and I was quite excited to be doing something on my own for once. Everything went smoothly and I was so proud of myself. Haha.
Of course, there was that one day everything went to shit...when I travelled down to Fairlie on the Sunday. Firstly, I missed my bus in the morning...Nana told me the wrong pick up point...and I never double checked...so then I rebooked the last seat to Timaru in the afternoon (bout half hour drive from Fairlie) and the wrong bus picked us up...over an hour late...and having no way to contact Dad, I was stranded in Timaru for just over an hour at night. I wasn't too afraid because I had a vague idea of where I was. Luckily the bus driver who dropped me off called my dad and told him I was at the station...then I just had to wait for him to come get me. He wasn't far away...thankgod.
Everything thing else went well though, and I came back on the Wednesday with Eden and Leia.

House-sitting
So before I went to NZ, Dad and the family...plus Eden and Leia went a couple of days beforehand. When they left, I moved into Dad's once again.
Being there this time was the best...I felt so relaxed and having the whole place to myself felt great. Then of course, I met them all over there on the weekend after and then coming back to stay again at Dad's till the following week.
Hmm...I miss that place, I always do every time I have to come back to Mum's. But this time was horrible. I had this like, emotional episode the night I came back...just felt all wrong to be here.


And now...
Not to skip over things too much but really, there's more going on and I'm not really updating as well as I normally do.
But basic thing to note is that things really aren't much different with the exception on the couple of things.
Work know I'm having my operation now.
Living back at Mum's, is tolerable now.
I miss my friends.
and...I really want to do the things I really really want to do with my life.
I still feel frustrated alot of the time, but I know I don't have too long to wait now.

More from me later.
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