I almost forgot I had this blogger, Beckee reminded me the other day, so I'm back.
It's almost been a year since I last blogged here...and alot has happened. Obviously, for the people that follow my blog, you guys know all about the changes that's happened in my life.
But to stay true and explain it here for the sake of it...I'm living back at Mum's place, I was jobless, I went broke, Chris broke up with me...and I became well...quite the mess. The good news is, I think I'm coming out of the worst of it now. Things are only just starting to come together.
Now, I have another job(s). I will be temp working in different areas in the South East for different companies, for a varied periods of time. It's for more money and for something to do, until June...that's when my first knee operation is due. I only just got the job on Friday, it was a pretty long interview (almost 3 hours!) but I came out employed, something I haven't been able to call myself previously for...10 months. It was a long 10 months.
But now, that's over thankgod. Maybe now, I can have a bit more extra coming in, hopefully so I can fix my car...it does need a bit of work now. But she is still running.
The whole thing with Chris is probably better left alone for now. I spent months pouring over everything, every single detail...torturing myself to no end at times. And now, I'm left looking back thinking of just everything I've learnt and still learning. I'm trying to take much better care of myself now.
Now I'm making plans and I have a dream of becoming a vet. I recently rediscovered my passion for animals. When it happened, it was like a huge light being turned on, and now it's there to stay. I won't let this go, I can't even explain how strong this feeling is for me. But it's burning brightly.
Being back at Mum's has been a bit difficult. There have been times when I've almost walked back out...and not too long ago, I was probably close as ever to actually doing it. Me and Mum can have some pretty fierce fights, but most of the time...it's Mum picking a fight for some stupid reason, taking her shit out on me, and I'm left to defend myself...but then it becomes this vicious cycle. So when she tries her crap, I'm trying to walk away now...instead of getting all worked up.
Really, it's impossible to put 10 months of stuff thats happened into one blog, so over time I guess it'll all come out. But I'm not really interested in looking back so much anymore.
